Own It

Sometimes you look back at your life and regret things. And then sometimes you look back and see how far you've come. This mind set totally depends on where you are in life and if you're aware of who you are. In the mornings, I fall in between both of these two places depending on the day, but I fully intend to end each day knowing who I am and that I'm an over-comer.

I am strong, I am bold, I am beautiful, I am a little crazy, I am kind, I am a child of God, I am empowered, I am a winner. I am also slightly crazy...

My managers at my job both work out at this gym in town and were always talking about how hard the workouts were, how sore they were, and how much, despite the hard work, they loved going. I'm very much about trying new things and challenging myself but have been not so great about that in the past year or so. Hence the weight gain. Half of what I lost I was well on my way to putting back on. So the smart person that I am, decided to sign up for a free trial. Cause, why not? I can't be that out of shape right? So so wrong.

The free trial isn't sugar coated, it's not watered down, and it's hard. But if you need someone creating a workout and telling you what to do, like I do, and if you can push yourself and keep going, then this place is awesome. Being true to who I am, I pushed too hard (during the warm up...) and pulled something around my hamstring, but I finished the workout.

I'm not sure if you all have heard of D1 and their bootcamps. If you've done them, you KNOW. If you haven't, you just. don't. know. You don't.

I am on day four if you don't count my trial run. I go to the 6AM bootcamp. I hate waking up to get sweaty. But it's so much better to get this torture out of the way when it's cooler in the morning as the gym does not have air conditioning.

I got really excited my first day because Andrew the trainer asked if everyone knew how to karaoke. I was like, yes! I do! How will that work though if we're running around the field? He gave me a puzzled look, which I returned because it was slowly dawning on me that his karaoke didn't involve singing... what he really said was carioca, otherwise known as the grapevine. So yeah, starting off on the right foot here.

I've been introduced to box jumps, box pushes, medicine balls that I've lugged down the field and back countless times, tires and hammers, SO MUCH RUNNING, and jump ropes. I can't even begin to tell you how much running. I hate running, but if it makes me better, I'll do it, begrudgingly. Also, I've skipped more in the past two days then I have my entire childhood. I had to seriously delve into my memories trying to remember if I actually did skip in my childhood and the conclusion I've come to is there is NO WAY I skipped back then. If I had, I wouldn't suck so bad at it now. Have you ever tried to skip backwards? No? Imagine that, well, we had to. I looked so special. I actually stopped a few times to ask myself what was happening, as it wasn't skipping, I'll tell you that.

I could go on and on about what I've been challenged to do, but I'll save some for later ;) Here's a little nugget to end with:

Own it. Whatever you're doing or want to do. Pick it up and run with it, no one else can do it for you. Pick it up and don't look back, because whatever is behind you doesn't matter. For me, keeping my eyes on who God says I am is the most important thing. He says I'm a winner, that I'm awesome and beautiful. He says I can do this and He's right there with me.

TBT - Take a look at what you've accomplished!

I've yet to join the #TBT band wagon, but it seems like a great way to reminisce and relive the good memories. It's also a wonderful time to look back to see how far you've come in your journey; whether that is growing up, moving away, starting life as an adult, finding Jesus and renewing your faith, or taking the leap to become a healthier person.

My road has been rocky, I've struggled at times, and I've also had major victories. I've lost weight, gained it only to lose it again, find it again and then lose it! I've had the most amazing family and friends that have supported me through my travels and I am so very thankful that they are still on board this crazy train to help me as I continue to walk the road I've chosen.

Each day is a new day and a fresh start to hit the ground running. We all fall and there will always be people there to pick us back up, cheer us on, and maybe start a new day in their lives with you. If you have someone in your life that doesn't support the changes you've made, take a step back and start to surround yourself with people that will. True family and friends that love you unconditionally will never abandon you. Eventually that person will see how happy you are, how healthy you've become in spirit and body, and will come around to re-establish themselves in your life.

Below you will see some pictures that I feel I needed to post. Not to brag about myself, but as a reminder to me that I've come a long way and while I still have more to go, I can do it. Look at what I've accomplished so far! So bring it on Throw Back Thursday (TBT because I know my mom will ask what it means)!

Then:

Now:

A visual feast, I know.

Now on to last nights food. I essentially just threw chicken, peppers, and zucchini in a pan with EVOO and gave them a little sauté action, topped it with Colby Jack cheese, and some pepperoni. Delish, nutrish and gone in 60 seconds ;) If you add a little low carb spaghetti sauce you would have an altered version of chicken parm, do give it a whirl!

Clean vs Not-So-Clean

So... how much of a difference does it make eating clean vs not-so-clean? For example: I really like cheese. Cheese is not clean, right?

Last night I made the most delicious "mac and cheese" with Kraft fat free singles and zucchini... and it was amazing. I will be making it again... soon.

So for someone who is not attempting to be a fitness model (I mean it'd be nice, but that's not me), can I continue to eat my cheese as long as I don't go over my daily caloric amount? Other than cheese, I'm pretty good at keeping things on the straight and narrow. I've fully adopted brown rice, stay away from bread no matter what (except at Brio... and Café Istanbul... and pita in general) I hardly eat pasta since I enjoy zucchini and spaghetti squash so much. I steam or eat my veggies raw, I don't drink milk and if I have to, it's almond milk. I've dropped soda for water, although a random can or two might make it's way into my hands during a rough week...

Ugh, I just feel stuck. But I went to the gym this morning and did my weights and tonight is insanity... so maybe I'll feel better after that.