Wednesday, February 29, 2012

40 Days of Honor - Day 8 Grandma

Weigh In Wednesday/Thursday

Let me start this post by saying that I thought today, through out the ENTIRE day, was Wednesday. I didn't remember starting this post yesterday morning... when it was actually Wednesday. So please pretend that this was posted yesterday/today ;)


Another pound gone, whew. I was a bit anxious to step on the scale this morning... I hard a complete breakdown yesterday and somehow I ate both a McDonald's small fry and a Shamrock Shake. I'd never had a Shamrock Shake before, so that was a little planned, but the fry was out of left field... oops? And now that my trainer has the link to this blog... oops oops? I incorporated those calories into my daily allotment, I promise!!!

Went to the regular gym for the first time in two weeks, and it was just as boring as I was anticipating. I ran on the treadmill because I have to start training for that 5k, or I might die. Literally. Right there on Akron's campus, die in my cute little purple running shoes.

It'll be like the wicked witch of the west's sister, minus the house... and my shoes are purple.

I digress.

So I ran, was bored, did some push ups, was bored and did some crunches... BORED. Why oh why does the boxing gym have to be so expensive! When I win the lotto, I'm paying off my CC debt, my school loans, my medical bills, my mortgage and then I'll get that membership ;)


Now pretend it's a day later and Thursday!

I got to train with Heather today, wahoo! I have to apologize to her for being so grumpy at the beginning of our hour together. I was frustrated that I wasn't able to do one of the things she had planned, so I had to do an easier version. I was so pissed I wasn't able to get my body to do it. After a year of working out, getting fit and building muscle, I am still weak in certain areas. She patiently explained that I'm always going to have areas I need to work on. She put up with my attitude but she shouldn't have had to :(

I was also having a day where I felt fat. I was facing myself in the mirror and all I could see was the old me. It's so frustrating to have to work twice as hard as last time to lose the weight. I know as I get more fit it'll be harder and harder to drop pounds, but I'm really starting to freak out that I won't hit that 5% mark before the end of the contest.

I also still see my arms and legs and think that they are flabby, which they are, I just had hoped to see less jiggle when I run. I have to be positive and know that I'm on the right track, it's just hard knowing that last year at this time I was close to a 30 pound loss already and this year I'm still struggling to re-lose that 8-9 pounds I put on over the holidays.

Here's a quick look at my num num dinner. I was going to grill out but it wasn't nearly as warm tonight as it was yesterday. Tomorrow is supposed to be 65, so I'll make a turkey burger for dinner tomorrow :)

This is hat awesome 100 calorie whole wheat pita pocket by Arnold, some cubed chicken, fat free ranch, spring mix and Roma tomatoes, plus a side salad :)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

40 Days of Honor - Day 7 Heather

Heather Ricardo is my personal trainer. She rocks my world and kicks my ass. She is one of the reasons I'm where I am today in my weight loss journey. She's a beautiful person and I one day hope to be as fit as her. No matter how bad a day I'm having, she knows just the right thing to say. She pushes me hard and doesn't listen to my excuses.

She has taught me how to exercise and eat right for life. She makes me feel good about myself and all that I've accomplished and she doesn't let me be negative about bad weigh in days. She's able to balance three children, a husband, job and my training sessions :) So she deserves a little honor today.

I hope Heather knows what a great person she is and how much she's influenced my life!

40 Days of Honor - Day 6 Amanda

I remember Amanda like all grown ups do some of their childhood friends. Warm but slightly fuzzy memories. Who knows, this could totally not have happened, but this is what I remember. I don't even remember her last name either, just her.

Amanda and I were close in 3rd grade. She seemed to come out of the blue. She was cool but not a "cool" kid. We both liked art and we both had brown hair and horrible bangs. For some reason, I remember feeling like we were twins. We played four square and tether ball and competed to see who could get higher on the swing set, I'm pretty sure we tied, cause I would remember if I won or lost ;) Competitive nature and all.

I think it was the last week of school, and one day before we left to get on the bus Amanda turned to me and said it was her last day and that she was moving. I don't think I realized she was serious, because it didn't sink in til the fall that my friend wasn't coming back. I vaguely remember (this is the part that my brain might be making up) her saying that she was a ward of the state, something had happened to her family and she was being put into foster care.

Today I honor Amanda as she taught me that I am truly blessed to have the life and family that I do. I can't imagine the fear, stress and pain that she must have felt having her life changed so quickly. Where ever you are Amanda, whether this event really did happen or not, you've taught me to appreciate everything that I have and that my parents and sister are together, happy and healthy. You were a great friend and maybe we'll meet again.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

40 Days of Honor - Day 5 Bach

This day of honor might seem like it's coming from left field, but hear me out.

Today I honor Johann Sebastian Bach. Born March 21, 1685, this man is one of my all time favorite composers. His early life was riddled with the death of all but one of his siblings and mother and father by the time he reached ten years of age. I won't lie, I just wiki-d all that information. You would think that when honoring someone during this journey, I'd be more familiar with their life story... as it might lend some merit to WHY they influenced me.

I won't say he directly influenced me as much as his music does. Continuously! It's absolutely perfect that my two favorite pieces of his relate directly to Lent, Easter and to the crucifixion of Jesus Christ. I was first introduced to The St. Matthew Passion and the St. John Passion during my time at Baldwin-Wallace College... (although now it's just Baldwin Wallace College). I associate some of my best memories of my college years with Bach's music and college choir. I find myself, during the spring, longing to get out that blue bound score and sing the notes written on those pages. To hear the glorious twining of the choral voices telling the story of Jesus' death. To sing in the oldest collegiate Bach Festival in the country was one of the best times of my life.

(I'm on the far left of this picture, top row! I was one hot looking alto 2!)

The two Passions are truly some of the most moving music I have ever sang. I weep when we get to the crucifixion as it's already an emotional story, but when told through the musical lines of Bach, I find myself appreciating more the sacrifice that Jesus made for us.

So Bach, I thank you for your gift of music to this world. I appreciate and honor your supreme talent and thank you for the joy it brings to my life.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

40 Days of Honor - Day 4 Colbie Jack

Okay, this may seem cliche, to honor my dog. But let me start off by saying that this being is also a creation of the Lord. She was made and put on this earth by God, just the same as you and me! She is my roommate, my guardian and a best friend. Every minute of every day, Colbie is waiting for me at the door when I come home from work. I haven't always been perfect to her and she still comes back to me, she always loves me. I take that for granted. She has taught me patience, soooo much patience. She may be 4 years old and potty trained, but she's still my furry child who gets sick and feels horrible about chewing up things that shouldn't be chewed, my furry child who can't help her muddy feet from doing her business outside, my ADHD child who doesn't understand why she has to be alone all day.

I used to get so angry about her inability to learn that eating my shoes was bad. I even hit her a few times. That was the worst thing I could ever do, it kills me that she flinches from my hand when raised. I am no better than someone who hits their spouse or loved ones. Dogs never forget what you've done to them, neither does God. I pray for forgiveness every night for the things I do wrong, and sometimes it's not appreciating the gift that is my Colbie Jack.

Colbie has done nothing but love me. She has taught me about unconditional love and responsibility. Today I honor her and her beautiful, playful self.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Lent is here, what are your Lental goals?

I received a text from a friend that challenged me to something I've never considered as a Lent goal. Everyone is giving something up, and yes I plan on attempting to wean myself from cursing... something that the Lord really doesn't look down on and say, 'Awesome choice of words Lindsay, keep it coming!'.

But on the flip side, there is the idea of being thankful for our lives because we wouldn't be here if Jesus hadn't sacrificed himself for us.

I pass along the challenge that Bailey sent to me, please take a moment to read her blog post and challenge yourself to honoring someone who has changed your life for the better each day of these 40 days...


I had the best intentions to get up at 5:30AM today and go to the gym for a boxing class. My alarm went off and I literally couldn't open my eyes and I was still tired from the work out at 8:30PM last night... needless to say, I did not get to the gym, nor will I make it there this evening. I have a night of relaxation and friend time scheduled with my bff. We're going to go grab dinner at Potbelly, yummmmm Chickpea Veggie Salad with Nonfat Vin! Then we're going to go see This Means War, where I will proceed to demolish some popcorn smothered in butter. Cheat day is happening people. It's happening hardcore and if this bothers you... well, I apologize. I'm not perfect and won't ever be, but I'm conscious of my decisions and will accept the consequences.

However, when I turned my alarm off and crawled back under my awesome aqua sheets, I forgot to set the reminder that this morning was weigh in Wednesday. So, as the title of today's post states, it was forgotten. I wish I had weighed in because this past week was full of all those boxing classes and I wanted to see if they made a difference compared to my usual routine. I'm afraid after my cheat day today, my weight won't be properly reflected on that scale :/

Alas, it'll have to do. Fred here at work told me I shouldn't work out more than 4 days a week other wise my body isn't getting enough rest. Does anyone else have an opinion on what the ideal time logged at the gym is? I know not to lift more than every other day, but is 5 days of cardio too much?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Weekend Update 2.19.12

Having Saturday off was so amazing. I've forgotten what it feels like to have a "weekend", where you don't have to worry about anything. I almost feel rejuvenated, and that was only one day off. I can't imagine how much more I'd love my life if I had two days of downtime.

I also took two days off from the gym. My body was really sore and tired from four days of those boxing classes. I didn't sit on my butt though, I made sure I got 30-45 minutes of brisk walking with Colbie. It was so gorgeous out on Saturday I was hoping that it would continue to Sunday, alas, it was a bit chillier and we didn't stay out as long.

I have a busy week coming up where I'm going to have to drag my extremely white ass out of bed at 5:30AM almost every morning to get to the gym. I have 8 days left of my two week trial at Title and I want to use it to my advantage. I don't know whether I'll be extremely chipper and energetic at work or if I'll be a walking zombie. Grr Argh.

A quick trip to Kroger for spaghetti squash also resulted in these awesome 100 calorie pita pockets by Arnold. I was intrigued by trying to recreate a new found food that I'm slightly obsessed with. Pitabilities is a food truck that randomly visits my office building and they have the best chicken veggie pita, ugh, I'm craving it as I type this entry... and I've already ate my version of it only an hour ago! Anywho, I sauteed some peppers, onions and chicken, a dallop of ranch and a sprinkle of mozarella, shove it in the pita and top with lettuce. BOOM!

I have to go get ready for this early class tomorrow, but I hope that this week goes well and that I've been making choices that will result in some weight loss!

Friday, February 17, 2012


I can't express how excited I am that it is Friday. For the first time in over three weeks I will have one day where I don't have to work. Saturday will be my first day off in over 20 days (that doesn't seem like a long time, but it is!) I understand that having large student loans, a mortgage, car payment and CC debt is something I've done to myself, and is my burden to bear. But I think I'm a pretty responsible person in acknowledging that debt and working a second job... that doesn't mean I have to like it. In fact, I'm hoping in the next few weeks or so I can put in my two weeks at the restaurant as I'm moving on up at my full time job... which should mean more money from that side. It'll essentially equal out to the same amount as what I'm doing now, but I'd have two days off a week! That hasn't happened since January 2010!

On top of that, I went to boxing for the third day in a row. So far I've had three different instructors for the classes, and each have had a different focus on what we work. Last night I threw more punches than any of the other nights. Also, last night I was waiting in line to get my hands wrapped and a guy I've never seen before offered to wrap me. So I held out my right hand and he started at it... and boom, boob graze. He was like a dear in headlights, it was hilarious. I explained to him that it was ok, they get in my way allll the time and apparently they get in yours too! He was so flustered he had a hard time wrapping my hands correctly. Would you know that he was the trainer for the class? He wouldn't look at me straight on the entire hour!

Also, I have a few new things to add to the list of exercises I despise.
-Yoga-ish move that you are on your hands and feet and dip your head towards the ground, body following and push up, then reverse it back... (my body doesn't move as gracefully as everyone else.)
-Flutter Kicks

I'm sure the list will continue to grow, but as much as I hate these moves, I love to hate them and I will conquer them! I'm also loving how fast the hour of intense activity goes. I dislike the treadmill and elliptical so much, and I'm realizing how much more work I do at these classes. I sweat like it's no one's business, and I'm tired halfway through. You know it's a good workout when you go to toe off your shoes and your calves cramp up just from that tiny movement! I'm dreading when my two weeks of the boxing are over and I have to go back to my mundane routine. I inquired about a boxing membership, but I think what he said to me was $69.99 a month on a year contract! As much as I like losing weight, I will NOT spend that much money on a gym. If I do go back to paying for a membership, it will be at Urban where I can take yoga, spinning, water and zumba classes as well as use all the equipment.

I leave you with one inspiring thought on this sunny Friday morning... we have exactly 29 days til St. Patrick's Day!

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Upset beyond belief!

You would think that the anniversary of my 27th year of singleness would be the cause for my anger, BUT, it's not. I'm in a tither this morning after weighing in! Really weight loss gods? I lost NO WEIGHT this past week? I worked out with the trainer twice, I went to two boxing classes and did cardio EVERY DAY of the week along with religiously watching my calories. How is this even possible?

ARGH! I don't care if I'm a female and it's harder to lose weight or that I'm smaller now so it's harder to lose weight. I worked my Beyonce off last week, more so than I have in a long time and the result slapped me in the face this morning... not a pound gone.

I sure as hades better be putting on muscle like it's my job. I only have 49 days left in this dang competition and I am broke as a joke. I need my $50 enrollment fee back, along with the additional $50 I'd get if I lost/gained that 5%. Let's not even get to the, "want to win the whole thing" topic.

Now that my rant has settled my nerves, let's chat about this boxing club. It's fun, it's a great work out and it's never the same class twice. With the disappointment I feel over the lack of loss this past week, I'm thinking cray cray at this point. (I like using cray cray in place of crazy... I don't care if this bugs you or paints me as a stupid, jersey shore loving wack job, it's my blog. Go away if it bugs you that much!) I'm feeling like I'm going to attempt two a days. The boxing club has classes at 6AM that I want to hit up and then I was going to add the 7:30 class as well. The biggest problem I see in this is that I'll have to do laundry halfway through the week vs just once as I'll run out of sports bras :) Seems like a good problem to have. If football guys can pull two a days in 100 degree heat, I can go hit a bag a few times and push out a few rounds of squats and wall sits.

I leave you with a this letter that I composed...

Hey there fat, how are you doing? I know we've been pretty close for a long time, but I've got some bad news, you've got to go. I'm going through this process where I'm letting go of the things and people that don't care for me anymore. You put on a good act, but you're really holding me back from achieving my life goals of marrying Chris Pine... and fitting into a size 8. Both seem equally impossible today, but since I saw Chris' face on that giant billboard while driving to work, that goal feels checked off the list for now. I'm feeling the urge to go buy a size 8 aqua dress to hang over my TV to help with the other goal.

Sorry if this makes you sad, a little part of me feels sad too. Sad that I let it get out of hand and that we built such a strong relationship to start off with. We wouldn't have this horrible break up if I had just spent more time with my other friends like Gym, Subway Veggie Delight and LiveStrong MyPlate. I hope you understand and wish you the best of luck where ever you go after this.


Monday, February 13, 2012

My weekend was spent working... yet again. And unfortunately the money I earned can't be used til next week :( Heather is not able to do any sessions this week, so I'll be on my own. Since this past week was strict and extremely hardcore in exercise, I was hoping to continue until at least Wednesday with the same schedule. I will have to improvise and hopefully re-create the two workouts that she had me do most recently. Womp.

I caved at work and had a bite of smoked mozzarella fonduta :/ It was sitting there, bubbling cheerfully at me, I had no choice but to partake! I did however, record it as calories consumed. Whereas before I would have pretended like it didn't happen... wahoo. For dinner on Saturday night I made a flat bread pizza that my friend Sam mentioned she had tried out. I used a 100 calorie whole wheat tortilla by La Tortilla Factory, 1/4/ cup of Heart Smart Prego sauce and 1/4 cup Kraft Fat Free Mozzarella cheese. Bake at 350 for 5-7 minutes and it totals 190 calories :) It was delicious and the edges crisped up to give it a little crunch.

It was slightly lacking in flavor, so Sunday night I tried out a ranch flat bread with red and green bell peppers, onion and mozzarella cheese. Different flavors and equally num nums.

I have volleyball tonight, we have to win... I hate losing. It sucks, and I'm grumpy. When I have a game at 10PM, lose and have to sleep on a loss, I usually wake up double grumpy. My mother would say, "Oh get over it Lindsay, it's just a game." I really can't though, this stupid sense of competitiveness won't leave and I just hate losing.

Happy Monday people, have a good week.

Thursday, February 9, 2012


Well, I survived! I was so red afterword that I looked like I had ran a mile on a 100degree day with a parka on, but I survived! Those boxing guys may be fit and good at instructing classes, but they're shit as photographers! This picture does nothing for me, but I don't mind as my class was free and I don't look nearly as sweaty as I really was.

We started our free class at Title Boxing Club by getting our hands wrapped, picking out loaner gloves and finding an empty bag near the front of the room. The room is just a large open area filled with hanging bags. I was slightly reminded of the scene from Killer Clowns where all their victims were hanging from the ceiling wrapped in cotton candy. I almost left right then and there.

I stayed, but it was a close thing. I'm glad I did, cause I had a lot of fun and felt extremely good after. Such a better way to work out then being tied to the elliptical or treadmill! I had my gloves on and was ready to start wailing away at the bag when the trainer said, let's run! Whaaaa?? Hello? Just like volleyball, I say, why run? It's not like the bag is going to scamper away every time I swing! So I start to run and then he yells out punch out! So we're running around punching out, then up, then out, then up. Then we shuffle sideways, my knee does something wonky, I look like I'm about to face plant, the trainer tells me to be careful and I decide that I'll sub in a weird cross shuffle instead. So we're side shuffling and doing a 1-2 punch, then we're doing side lunge squat thingies and the 1-2 punch, then we're running, then high knees, running, high knees with punches. It felt like this went on for 10 minutes, but really it was pry only five.

Then came the wall sits. I'm not going to lie, I was really excited, I'm the shit at wall sits. My legs look super hot when doing wall sits, and anything that makes me feel fit is awesome. Then he tells us to punch, fast. I'm not so great at wall sit punching. Nor am I used to switching to putting your weight on your toes and switching back to entire foot while punching. Wow. Wall sits just turned into my worst nightmare.

FINALLY we went over to our bags and got to hit the daylights out of them. A lot of different combos combined with more high knees to get random bursts of cardio to keep our heart rates up. Then we mixed in abdominal work as well, which, surprisingly was easy the first set and much harder the second set.

We finished with abs and then had to clean the bags, spray the gloves and put the smelly wraps into a wash bin. Overall, totally fun and worth it. I'm so glad that I have a pass to take a week of free classes, that will totally change up my routine and make working out that much better!

Also, I had to change my design just for the sake of my mother. She couldn't get her iPad to read the white font... so please enjoy the beach scene. Mom, are you happy now? Hopefully it will instill a frantic urge to start watching what you eat and working out cause beach time is right around the corner!!

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Weighing In

2 pounds. After a week of pretty diligent watching of my diet and getting some form of body movement every single day, I've lost 2 pounds. I'm slightly disappointed as I was hoping for another 7 pounds loss, just like the last time this happened. I hit up the doctor today to see if I can find a solution to this problem. Fingers are crossed. I'll take a 2 pound loss over a 4 pound gain. I am taking the advice of Becky and going with a measuring tomorrow, so we'll hopefully see some differences from last time.

In an attempt to yet again, jump start this losing journey, I've agreed to take my one free class of boxing at Title Boxing Club with my friend Kelly. I'm going to convince her that before and after pictures are completely necessary. This club boasts that it's classes can burn up to 1000 calories. Sceptic that I am, I can't track my calorie burn as I don't have a nifty device like Kmae called the fitbee, or was it a fitbug? I'll just have to judge by sweat, and the look of death that might be on my face in the after picture.

I also worked out with Heather last night and plan to work with her again tomorrow. I asked her to push me as much as she can in 1/2 hour sessions twice a week to spread out my weight routine. Last night I learned how to do Olympic lifts? Those babies are kinda fun :) Mind you, I was using a little bar, not a full bar. Womp. I'll get there, it's a new goal.

I've also almost promised to do a second 5k with a friend here in Columbus. I've also almost said I would go on a trip to Spain with another friend... I kinda have a hard time saying no. It's getting me into a lot of trouble, le sigh.

Also, check this out. I have 9 weddings that I've been invited to for 2012. 9. As my friend Aziza pointed out, she's moved onto the friends having babies portion of life and I've hit the peak of the weddings portion. I'm having a vague sense of Carrie Bradshaw's baby/wedding dilema.

I'm off to grab some more coffee, make my snack of Aunt Millie's 35 calorie wheat bread with sugar free jam. I hope that you make and hit at least one goal this week, even if it's just climbing the steps at work vs. taking the elevator!